I think therefore I am. I don’t think therefore I am not?

I am aware that I haven’t written anything here for a little while but I wasn’t sure why. I just knew that I didn’t think I had anything to write about. Then I realised; it’s not so much that I didn’t think I had anything to say as I have actually stopped thinking all together,Continue reading “I think therefore I am. I don’t think therefore I am not?”

Cancer Scrabble

Grade II, stage III ductal carcinoma with fine needle aspiration showing a cytology of 5 indicating nodal metastases. ER8/8, PR8/8, HER2-. Staged negative there is no evidence of distant metastasis. A neo-adjuvant anthracycline and taxane based chemotherapy regimen has been offered prior to surgery. And so it goes on. Neo-adjuvant chemotherapy will comprise epirubicin andContinue reading “Cancer Scrabble”

Let me just Google that…

When the doctor first told me I had breast cancer the biopsy results weren’t back and I hadn’t had any scans. He knew it was more than likely to be a breast cancer because of the relationship between the lump and the swelling in my lymph nodes. We talked about the scans and the testsContinue reading “Let me just Google that…”

Waiting to be ill.

So I haven’t written anything here for a little while. I think it’s fair to say that, with the onset of chemotherapy, a shift has been made away from the philosophical and towards the practical. There is far less musing about and thinking things over than there was. I have had my first chemo sessionContinue reading “Waiting to be ill.”

It’ll be worse before it gets better

A few days ago I went to what they call a pre-assessment at the chemotherapy unit. I was given a tour of the unit and shown where I would go and told what would happen. There were other folk already there, sitting in chairs, plugged into IVs and watching telly. A couple of women wereContinue reading “It’ll be worse before it gets better”

Wassail to you

To be truly honest with you I have been a bit apprehensive about New Year’s Eve this year. I knew I felt uneasy about it but I couldn’t quite put my finger on why exactly. Now obviously it was probably something to do with cancer. Almost my entire existence now has something to do withContinue reading “Wassail to you”

Christmas with cancer

When it comes to hosting Christmas we usually take it in turns between my partner’s parents and us, with my parents visiting from up North every other year. This year was an our friends from the North year so due to be at our house. I had been planning it pretty much since January 2013Continue reading “Christmas with cancer”